something I am grateful for today

being alive

Neither of my older brothers lived to be as old as I am today. The oldest died just over five years ago, and he was just over five years older than me. So in a sense I have been waiting for this day to see if I could make it. Apparently I did. Ever since he passed, I've harboured an odd feeling that, if I made it to today, that everything I get after this point is gravy... as if I have no right to more than my brothers got.

I'm probably being silly, but I don't intend to worry overmuch about it. I'd rather focus on making the best use I can of these coming days.