unexpected thought
Jun. 19th, 2012 01:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
johncomicI just commented on someone else's post elsewhere, and in my comment I described myself as “a (former) curmudgeon”. It wasn't until the characters had left my fingertips and entered the monitor that I stopped to realize:
for most of the decades of my life, I had an image of myself as bitter, depressed, pessimistic, and a curmudgeon. But today, I no longer really see myself as any of those things.
Oh sure, I have the odd moment still. And someone like Sharon might give me a look and go “What do you mean?! You still do this and this and...” or somesuch. But even if my current self-evaluation is not rigidly accurate: I think the fact that I have this new self-evaluation at all, means something.
Maybe something as simple as “we don't have to always completely be what we were”.
for most of the decades of my life, I had an image of myself as bitter, depressed, pessimistic, and a curmudgeon. But today, I no longer really see myself as any of those things.
Oh sure, I have the odd moment still. And someone like Sharon might give me a look and go “What do you mean?! You still do this and this and...” or somesuch. But even if my current self-evaluation is not rigidly accurate: I think the fact that I have this new self-evaluation at all, means something.
Maybe something as simple as “we don't have to always completely be what we were”.
