I am, truly. But I also recognize that I am very lucky in that regard.
I was never a "goal-oriented" person. That is, I never pondered "goals" as a way of directing or guiding my life. This occurred to me sometime in college. So I thought, hmm, if I were to make a goal in life, what would it be?? Then in a moment of clarity I realized my goal in life is to be happy. Whatever that may be. I know that it will change as I change.
The reason that is my goal is because if I'm happy, it won't matter whether or not I have a boyfriend, how much I weigh, or how much money I have (the things I worried about in college). I used to get depressed more often in college, but I don't really anymore. The main exceptions to that are during PMS, when the emotions can do whatever they want, including make me happier or make me sadder than "average." But that's not depression, that's temporary sadness (or some months happiness) that is enhanced/magnified by the change in hormones.
a) I think it needs to be asked more often than it usually is, to help prevent coasting. b) I'm really curious: it occurs to me that the question could elicit a fascinating range of responses, from zip to "yes/no" to philosophical discourse and the entire spectrum of human hoo-hah. c) I'm wondering if there are common themes.
yes, I am. But a lot of times, I get sucked into the shithole of despair over relatively dumb stuff and I forget that when push comes to shove, I am very happy.
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Date: 2006-11-15 10:29 pm (UTC)I was never a "goal-oriented" person. That is, I never pondered "goals" as a way of directing or guiding my life. This occurred to me sometime in college. So I thought, hmm, if I were to make a goal in life, what would it be?? Then in a moment of clarity I realized my goal in life is to be happy. Whatever that may be. I know that it will change as I change.
The reason that is my goal is because if I'm happy, it won't matter whether or not I have a boyfriend, how much I weigh, or how much money I have (the things I worried about in college). I used to get depressed more often in college, but I don't really anymore. The main exceptions to that are during PMS, when the emotions can do whatever they want, including make me happier or make me sadder than "average." But that's not depression, that's temporary sadness (or some months happiness) that is enhanced/magnified by the change in hormones.
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Date: 2006-11-15 10:41 pm (UTC)The world needs considerable editing, though.
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Date: 2006-11-15 11:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-11-16 12:25 am (UTC)no subject
b) I'm really curious: it occurs to me that the question could elicit a fascinating range of responses, from zip to "yes/no" to philosophical discourse and the entire spectrum of human hoo-hah.
c) I'm wondering if there are common themes.
Mostly b), I guess.
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Date: 2006-11-16 06:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-11-16 06:11 am (UTC)Although my job is soul-sucking right now, I am truly lucky.