My head’s been hurting the last few days, and today it got a bit worse. So I didn’t accomplish much today, and spent much of the day feeling ground down and wrung out and a bit sorry for myself.

But, after supper, I started assembling the makings of the chamomile tea I will have later this evening. [It’s a help-me-sleep ritual I've adopted over the last few months.] And, when I got the teabag out of its box, I stopped and noticed it. And became very aware that I had it, and that there were several more boxes of tea on the shelf next to the open one. There’s ostensibly nothing so special about this tea — I get it at Dollar Tree so it’s easy to keep a supply in — but I really enjoy this particular brand. And then I got thinking about how I’m able to have this tea every night when I want. And I have a clean cup ready to put the bag into, and a kettle ready to boil the water, and water to put in the kettle, and a comfortable seat in a cozy house where I can rest when I have my tea...

...and suddenly my eyes got a bit wet as I was flooded with the feeling of being blessed.

After two heavy snowstorms in the space of a week, and me sitting here feeling the aches and pains of shovelling the latest one yesterday....

...the sight of light flurries outside my window just now immediately fills me with a flash of dread.

staying on track

In retrospect, I feel like I had a pretty decent day. Ran an unusual number of errands this morning, all successfully, including a physio appt. Navigated the snowy streets without incident. Remembered to change the furnace filter. Stayed on top of the dishes despite being tempted to blow them off. Inked a page of comic strips. And got thru most of the day without needing meds. So yeah, I feel like I stayed on track today a bit better than some days.

Melatonin.

My doctor recently recommended this [and magnesium] for the trouble I've had with sleeping during this past year-plus, so I've been trying it. I've now woken up from my third solid night's sleep in a row — the first time that has happened this year.

This morning, I not only feel refreshed, I feel interested in doing something. And this makes me realize that, somewhere along the line, not just fatigue but apathy had become my new normal, without me noticing. I'm hoping this is all a portent of better things to come.

a clean bill of health on my dental checkup, plus praise for my home care

This morning, my weight was at a thirty-year low. The last couple decades have been a study in slow and steady.

waking up and feeling like doing something

pizza — first time I've had it in months!

getting something creative done this afternoon when I didn't feel like it

in this case, it was only doing some lettering for upcoming comic strips, so not like real artsy or anything... but at least I did something and didn't just sleep [so wrung out and beat today]

our back scratcher — yes one of those plastic sticks with a plastic hand on one end.... it occurs to me that I use it every day