question of the day

[johncomic]

i recently ran into a situation nearly identical to one that had me in quite a quandary about fifteen years ago... but this time i find i'm dealing with it completely differently. not purely on the basis of experience: i find that i'm quite naturally taking a different perspective on it. it's like how i see things, feel about things, etc. are way different than they were back then.

anyhoo, it got me thinking about how much i've changed over the years... sometimes like you'd expect, sometimes in ways i never woulda thunk. in some ways i'm a very different person now. not necessarily for good or for ill: just different, is all.

so: what would you say has changed most about you in the last, oh, say ten years or so? [and i mean changed about you as a person -- identifying receding hairlines and expanding waistlines is too easy ;) ] and how do you feel about this change?

i ask cuz i wanna know...

Comments

[rdcf.livejournal.com]

One word - self-esteem. I actually have some now. I was 22 10 years ago and a totally different person. I was drinking a lot, engaging in a lot of very dangerous behavior, severely depressed, completely irrespondable about money, you name it. I was incredibly screwed up.

Something happened to me 10 years ago this August that finally helped me hit rock bottom and get to work on turning my life around. I really strugged for the next 8 years, I wanted to make things better and I tried but failed most of the time. Turning 30 was a major turning point for me. In early 2001, I saw the birthday coming and it really lit a fire under me to finally get things together once and for all. And now I finally feel like a grown-up. I'm sober, I'm drug-free, I have a wonderful husband, great friends, a decent career and overall a great life. I'm not always happy and there are still plenty of areas that I'm still working on but I'm more happy than sad, angry or frustrated and view my life as extraordinarily boring and I love it!

And yay Curmudge posted!

[johncomic.livejournal.com]

rox, i had no idea about all this less-than-ideal sutff going on with you [granted, i'm not one of your closest intimates and never expected to be]... but i hope you can glean some idea of how deeply happy i am to hear about all the positive changes you've made. i'd send you a pile of virtual hugs if they hadn't been declared uncool so long ago... ;)

i personally find your story really inspiring, and a boost in my present attempts to Get Going™...

[rdcf.livejournal.com]

Virtual hugs never went out of style in my world so I'll consider myself hugged! Yeah, I've been through some stuff, but so have a lot of other people. I'm just grateful I had a happy ending, so many people don't get theirs. I'm pretty happy with who I am and I wouldn't be this person without those experiences so in that sense I can't really regret any of my past mistakes.

Well, I'm glad you feel inspired! I don't think I've ever inspired anyone!