unexpected thought
Jun. 19th, 2012 01:07 pmI just commented on someone else's post elsewhere, and in my comment I described myself as “a (former) curmudgeon”. It wasn't until the characters had left my fingertips and entered the monitor that I stopped to realize:
for most of the decades of my life, I had an image of myself as bitter, depressed, pessimistic, and a curmudgeon. But today, I no longer really see myself as any of those things.
Oh sure, I have the odd moment still. And someone like Sharon might give me a look and go “What do you mean?! You still do this and this and...” or somesuch. But even if my current self-evaluation is not rigidly accurate: I think the fact that I have this new self-evaluation at all, means something.
Maybe something as simple as “we don't have to always completely be what we were”.
for most of the decades of my life, I had an image of myself as bitter, depressed, pessimistic, and a curmudgeon. But today, I no longer really see myself as any of those things.
Oh sure, I have the odd moment still. And someone like Sharon might give me a look and go “What do you mean?! You still do this and this and...” or somesuch. But even if my current self-evaluation is not rigidly accurate: I think the fact that I have this new self-evaluation at all, means something.
Maybe something as simple as “we don't have to always completely be what we were”.
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Date: 2012-06-20 01:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-20 02:54 pm (UTC)Sutff came about because I often typo the word “stuff” that way -- so often, that I eventually decided to officially adopt “sutff” as the word I use instead. So now I am no longer making typos! (I even say sutff at home now!)